So today was officially my last day with Futureproofs, after working for the company for nearly 4 years I’ve decided to move on. This post isn’t about the reasons behind that decision, but rather what has dawned on me as I’ve used my remaining 10 days annual leave.
For sometime now I’ve felt like I’d lost my way; the sensation which drove me to learn things and try new development techniques has slowly faded. I’ve still been learning, but passively, I haven’t actively sought knowledge. I’d assumed it was my ever increasing age and work/life responsibilities getting in the way. But now I’m nearly at the end of my holiday, I’ve come to realise that I’m suffering from burnout.
the reduction of a fuel or substance to nothing through use or combustion.
Which aptly describes how I’ve been feeling for the last 6 months, “devoid of fuel”.
For two weeks I’ve done almost nothing but take photos, walk the dog and decorate various rooms of the house and it has been glorious. I’ve been able to take great pleasure in mundane tasks, tasks that require no thought, just time and patience.
I cannot wait to start my new job on Monday; it’s a green-ish field project which will be both challenging and educational, but this time round I vow to manage my time better and avoid productivity entropy…